it's me and my greeneries

perth-ing

2009-11-15T16:01:00.001+08:00

flight time: 1.10am.
lovely companion: xue yi.
destination: yu xuan's arms.

loves

=)

r.n

2009-11-13T23:22:00.004+08:00

i am back from cruising!
cruised from sunday to wednesday.
tired is the word to describe. oh well.

before i go perth this sunday, i am rather bothered by something.
(beside not packing my luggage and worried that money not enough)

IS MY NADAL BALDING? cham ah. what to do huh?

nonetheless. i still heart him.

(http://www.rafaelnadal.com/nadal/image/upload_12cf0b07_120667d36b0__7ff8_00000000.jpg)

*

i will be away in perth visiting my lovely sister from 16 to 22. miss me not yah?
yeah. no babysitting/houseworking for a week! sweeeeeeetness!

and then! it's to h.k.! wees!

take care all!

xoxo

=)

foul-ing

2009-09-27T23:30:00.005+08:00

i am in a bloody foul mood.now.damn.whatthehell.

i don't know which word is suitable to describe my feelings. but it sucks.totally.

i should still be very pumped up and excited (because tickets to Perth are booked),

instead, i am dumb folded by a rather disgusting situation.

-

I sort of lost my father. now, i am losing my mother.

she's not ill or anything but some one out there is calling my mum, hers.

she's getting too close to her, to an extent which i am feeling disgusted.

i am not angry.
if you want me to be, you have not succeeded.

i am not jealous.
if you want, i will give up my position as her rightful daughter, to you.

but, giving up is not my kind of thing. fight me if you can.

even after the day i die, i shall be my mum's one and only daughter.
should you want to alter that, it will be over my dead's body.
should you want to spoil our r/s, i will put a knife right through your heart.

you can play your little game and go on with the pretending and acting,
but, even until you are dead, that will never ever happen.

you heard me. it's - 'never ever'.

true story.

mad world

2009-09-25T15:50:00.002+08:00

don't we all agree that - sometimes, we think that this is a mad world?

i never hear the gary jules' version of mad world but the adam lambert's version blew me away and i am still trying to sit/think straight.

All around are me are familiar faces

Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for the daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
And their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrows
No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very very,
Mad world, Mad world

Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy birthday, happy birthday
May they feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me

And I find it kind of funny,
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very very
Mad world, Mad world
Mad world, Mad world

*

(repeat mode)
repeating for like 2500 times.

l-o-v-e

2009-09-25T00:40:00.007+08:00

when he loves you truly, he will embrace all your flaws and scars
when he loves you truly, he will want to see all your ugly sides and times
when he loves you truly, he will not mind treating you like a princess
when he loves you truly, he will go through the good and the bad with you
when he loves you truly, he will go the extra mile just to make you smile
when he loves you truly, he will not ask for fairness
when he loves you truly, he will let you feel his importance when he hold you close
when he loves you truly, he will care, motivate and cheer you on whenever needed
when he loves you truly, he will let his insecurities take over him sometimes
when he loves you truly, he will not want anything bad to happen to you
when he loves you truly, he will only have eyes for you
when he loves you truly, he will treasure and cherish you
when he loves you truly, he will miss you even if you are right before his eyes
when he loves you truly, he will kiss and dry your tears whenever you have them
when he loves you truly, he will make you cry when he pop that important question

when he loves you truly and you love him truly,
true love will exist between the both of you.

i am sure the list will go on but so far, these are what i have thought of ...
feel free to add on!

happy birthday to my dearest mummy!

i love you.
you are really fast & furious abt booking of cruise!
star cruise star cruise, phuket & penang, here we come!
woohoo!

happy birthday to lulu!!!
big hugs!

*

happy knowing you for 5 years and 6 months.

of expression

2009-09-23T00:44:00.003+08:00

i want to get you like how much Hitler wanted the Jews

i want to get you like how much the "Inglorious Bastards" wanted the Nazis

i want to get you like how much a hungry and wild tiger needed a prey

i want to get you like how much a scavenger needed a corpse

i want to get you like how much a revengeful ghost needed a revenge

i want to get you like how much my hatred can lead me to.

are your emotions satisfying?

go on

2009-09-21T11:48:00.001+08:00

3 projects are down and done.
2 more to go go go!!!

we can do it! =)

*

mel,
it was nice chatting with you.
knowing about how you are doing.
just talking to you.
hearing your voice.

take care ya. see u in dec!

i love ya =)

i

2009-09-18T00:52:00.001+08:00

late at night, down and tearing.
no one else to turn to.
how scary it is to self-talk oneself
dont wanna take another for granted
for i know how it feels like

i believe in sheer fate and luck
i still believe in the - "forever friends"
and i want to believe in genuine friendship

i do want to.

my lil bdd

2009-09-18T00:13:00.014+08:00

after so long, finally, blogger could work for me again!!! (rather, i had gave up trying...)
i had wanted to blog about much stuff but as time goes by, i just did not. now i hope to be back and do some updates on this lil space of mine!

13.09.09. marina baraage!

it was a sunny day!

shakes hand with mr water droplet.

me loves to kick ball-ball!

kor-kor! catch this!

run baby run!

kor-kor, carry me!

and bring me there!

my two most precious-precious =)

ask jie-jie come sit down here beside me!

opps. forgot to smile for the camera! HEEES!

for some reasons, jie-jie loves this picture.

knocked-outed

* i heart you all.

time seriously has been slipping by. my lil bdd has grown up so much. talking and talking all day in his language which i cannot understand. i tried to guess here and there and it was so much fun.

we talk like a rabbit and a pig. i am rabbit, he is pig. he is just so dear so close to my heart. so much so that i am afraid of losing him. he is no longer a baby. he is a toddler now. soon, he will become a lil kid and then he will attend school and he will grow and grow and grow.

i wish at some point, the growing would be slowed down because i want to cherish and spend more time with him. i want to enjoy the moment and i want to be able to care much more for him...

even though his looks will change but i will always see him as my lil bdd. he just grows on me. he just appeared and stole my heart.

wrong

2009-08-06T20:50:00.000+08:00

something's wrong with blogger.damn.

helplessness

2009-07-06T14:04:00.002+08:00

i would love to post a picture of bdd & i. but i don't know why it doesn't appear!! it says upload success but the photo doesn't appear! angry*

school starts today.
runqing - graduate with distinction!

JIA YOU AH, i must!

hmmd

2009-05-10T22:05:00.001+08:00

happy mama day! to all the lovely and great mothers out there!

to my very own beautiful and cute mummy: i love you very much and i will always be your best friend and someone you can count on for the rest of your life. hugs&kisses! =)

damn!. i have lost yet another F1 bet. it is just boring. it's button. button. button and more button. but one thing that makes F1 more worthwhile to watch is - button's girlfriend. she is freaking hot. i know this sounds a bit lesbianly but she is hot (with a capital 'H')!

4june

2009-05-09T18:28:00.004+08:00

i am so looking forward (in a bad way) to 4 june, after 2pm.
buddha bless me! i just wanna pass all 3 modules!
gosh. it's so many i-should-have-done-this-&-that.
i know its all too late. things always happen that way. damn. it was hard to predict the scope of the papers. haiya. for this sem, it's all over and done with. move on!

happy vesak day! i went to some clan place at geylang to take part in the vesak day event. i love giving baby buddha baths! i wished for world peace, less poverty and safety for all my love ones.

i went clubbing for the 1st time.
i went--- butter factory on wed.
cool.cute.damn.disgusted.fun.hot. are words i would describe the experience.

i asked shieddha and chris jie along too. but only shieddha stayed with me as chris jie and her friends felt that that night, it just wasnt their kind of crowd. thank you shieddha kaka! it was lovely to meet you and have you take care of me!

to yan, zhen cong, zhen cong's friend and shieddha: you guys made history in my life =)

afmm should meet up! our exams are over! i think angel have some good news to announce! hees.

i miss xuan+i miss xuan+i miss xuan+i miss xuan+i miss xuan+i miss xuan

bdd has gotten cuter and cuter! squeezes him! he turned 17 months already! oh. i feel i have aged. hahaha.

i wanna go h.k. now that the situation there is alright.

yesterday, i was holding bd's lil baby neighbour - Nathaniel and he is absolutely a lil darling. i carried him. i held him close to me and sang&dance. he was so peaceful, calm and smiley.he attempted to eat my hair! hahaha. he was a cute and adorable lil 6 months old. i so wanna carry him again! his grandpa said i have a way with kids. (OF COURSE MAN!) i can babysit him! for free! employ me!!! hees. no la. how can i do that to bdd. how can i? hees.

thank you you bd. just thank you. and i hope that dip you made for the chips is nice! i shall taste it later. oh well. qualifying for F1- @ spain is at 8pm. hope your fav. driver - kimi raikkonen can do well! =)

to all: hugs&kisses

love the earth.live healthy.care for others.

=)

random playlist

2009-04-01T14:00:00.002+08:00

guess what kind of songs do i listen to?

here are some:
Tony Yayo - So Seductive
Kanye West - Love Lockdown
New Kids On The Block & Ne-Yo - Single
John Legend ft. Andre 3000 - Green Light
Jay-Z & T.I. ft. Kanye West & Lil Wayne - Swagga Like Us
Ludacris Co-Starring Chris Brown & Sean Garrett - What Them Girls Like

once a while, i repeat 10 times of David Cook's - Always Be My Baby

and i go gaga over Lady GaGa's Just Dance and Poker Face =)
she's damn cool.

i am into r&b and the black music genre. they keep me going and swaying.

i can't do without M>U>S>I>C

jiayou with the last project!

damn. i need to sleep now~

hafd. happy april's fool day. get fooled.

disgusted

2009-03-31T18:00:00.003+08:00

i am utterly disgusted by my F480! it's lousy! far from lousy! it's superly lousy! kaos. don't die on me now lor. it has only been less than 2 months! F*CK! stop hanging! i said "STOP HANGING!!!". damn it.

sorry to all my friends and contacts. i really have problems calling/messaging. sorry!
*
i am a SALONPAS girl today. the shoulder ache is practically killing me. lucky i have mummy to help me massage. thank you mummy! i love u!
*
this sounds really super random! i received a confession phone call last night at 11.30pm when i was chiong-ing project (and i told him that). it was scary. scary in the sense that it was late and he was calling for the first time and we don't even know each other well. i could sense that he was nervous and was trying hard to explain that it wasnt a prank call. no, he didnt called using a private number. his number was 6544XXXX. mummy was beside me and was like "-___-" she made some comments which made me laughed hard.

anyway, i thanked that guy, taking whatever he had said as : Purely Compliments. i kept asking like : " who are you? cant you just tell me?" he was like: "i don't think you really want to know me and we are not even friends..."

okay, anyway, final statement: I KNOW WHO YOU ARE LA. *sweats

dear bdd

2009-03-30T21:40:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 16 MONTHSy!!!

he was eating my cake!!! ^%$#$#$^%&^
wassup with the super neat hair? ahahaha.

*

my shoulder ache is affecting me alot. it affects the veins connected to my head. now i have head ache too. oh i love the "buy-one-get-one-free-with-no-warnings" promotion.

i am done done with AMCA and SQ. now is MARCOM. oh i wanna faint. somebody else will have to compile MARCOM. i can't have late nights le. it's killing me.

i wanna give credits to my "newest" group member who helped to edit the work =)
thank you so much! *winks

bdd can be cured by Alvin & The Chipmunks - Funkytown. he was really funny!
bdd can "muah" me back! so cute. *muacks+muacks+muacks!
bdd can say "car car", "ball ball", "bear bear", "HUH", "AIYA", "Buay" (won't in hokkein), "Ai" (want in hokkein), "mai" (dont want in hokkein), "Ai Ai" (love love)
and mimick a horse. i was laughing my ass off. he just went: "MA MA MA MA~~~~~~"

oh i love him so much. he is one of my great source of motivation. jia you me!

arghs!

2009-03-23T17:22:00.002+08:00

i am very uneasy, unquiet, irritable, testy, fretful, violent, hot; curt, brusque, abrupt, hasty, impetuous, precipitate and sudden now.

one wrong word. one false assumption.

i will blow up in your fu*king poker face.

i will bite. HARD.

pondered

2009-03-23T14:23:00.004+08:00

i can multi-task.

i can

do project
pick up the house phone
flip for reference
sing twinkle twinkle lil stars to bdd
feed him cute lil stars
talk to bd on msn
answer to my popo's doubts
stir-fry vegetables
fry egg + onion
deep fry chicken wings
simmer chicken+ginger+mushroom in martel
eat and feed bdd some cheesecake
wash the dishes
carry bdd and walk ard and dance and swirl
listen to music
do project
and blog!

- some at the same time and some concurrently.

i wonder if i am still coping well.. hmms..

argh!

2009-03-23T00:22:00.002+08:00

i keep editing the blueprint!
like for the umpteen times!
goodness!
look at the time!
i want to sleep already!

Eminem - When Im Gone

jia you & jia you & jia you!

sunday-blued

2009-03-22T21:28:00.004+08:00

awwws!

today bdd go bird park!
but I cant go!
damn all those projects!!!

*mama penguin and baby penguin*

i love them both very much =)

back to projects...

jia you!

frustrated

2009-03-09T17:59:00.002+08:00

yes. i am. i need a solution and i have one. check it out. it works, every time.

lost

2009-03-03T17:24:00.018+08:00

03 MARCH - i bited bdd. opps.

25 feb - i losing my voice
26 feb - both bdd and i lost our voices
27 feb - i down with flu, fever, headache.
28 feb - the whole package takes effect.

credits: bdd! (it's all thanx to him.)

poor lil him is having a hard time too. with all the phlegm..

AH! bad weather you might say but who to blame actually? - the FATHER.

*

some bad hair day.

cant get any worse i think...

knight me!

yes baby i will. when i buy "the sword"

bdd loves TENNIS!............... balls.

moments before he hit his forehead against some pole.

Garfield or bdd cuter?

bdd!

he can drive!

with one small tiny hand.

26.02.09

HAPPY 15th MONTHS! =)

love you!

and stop eating with 2 spoons!

*

# Random

popo made dumpling soup that day. forgot which day. in the soup base, she used lots of bones and silver fishes and........................... a baby octopus?

i was like "HUH?" then i exclaimed: "it's so small so cute lei!" i kept it for a while longer and showed bd the baby. that was my "Discovery" channel moment.

*

i am happy for xuan. from the pictures i see. she's doing pretty greaaat!

i wanna thank xue for sending me home that day =)

i want to thank kind korkor (he bought ABC mat for bdd!) thank you! =)

i am going to watch slum dog millionaire! dances

i have to do project!

i have to SAVE! (for thunderstorms)

i need to remind yan to save!

I HAVE TO GET WELL! *COUGHS/COUGHS/COUGHS/PUI!

xoxoxxooxxooxoxo

bdd sick

2009-02-23T14:31:00.002+08:00

goddamnit. bdd is sick again. down with flu for the 3rd time. i am super angry. cos it always happen. he's just a lil baby. why the fuck you wanna on the fan to the strongest and on aircon at 22 degrees? i understand that bdd sweats and get frustrated(like i do). but which active kids doesnt? there is no fucking need to turn on both fan and aircon at the same time and blow at him straight! fucking no sense and no bloody brain functioning right. i am damn pissed. (for the umpteen times!)

you are a parent but you are insane. seriously.

bdd's progress

2009-02-20T22:13:00.010+08:00

oh my buddha. did i tell anyone or everyone? bdd can like walk walk!!!! with no support! he's the sweetest thing next to my lovely mummy.! photos time!

we went Sentosa Flowers during cny. bdd still needs support to walk his baby steps..

teeth/tooth/teeth/tooth

bdd's serious case of eyebags!!!

bdd cny attire/uniform.

naived

2009-02-20T21:58:00.002+08:00

i guess i am too naive at times. naive. naive. naive. you dont have to know what i am talking about.

ah!!!

*

i miss yu xuan la! i really do. i bought her a v.day gift! i hope when the weather turns cold, she will wear the scarf i knit for her. sister, i love you. please do take goody care of yourself. stay strong and positive. work hard and play hard. i heart you lots!

*

done done with -AMCA CA1-4
-SQ Case Study

bring on the rest! i am so ready.

jia you! =)

argh!

2009-02-05T18:54:00.004+08:00

i am so pucking stressed! my laptop can't download things for nuts and so i can't read any pucking pdf files! what the hell!!! all project files and lecture notes are in PDF lor! this pdf. shit. that pdf. shit! and what in the pucking world is the 1935 error?!

i am feeling damn helpless about the funeral. i mean: it's a funeral. i can't agree/disagree with things. i know saturday morning is the funeral. everyone is going but i got class and i can't babysit so one of you have to babysit! and shit la.. i arrange for the delivery of the new modem on saturday morning. how smart.

i can't rant certain things as this is "public". seriously! AHHHHH! puck off puck off puck off la!

HELPLESS is my new favourite word. oh i feel so helpless! gosh! why why why?

*

xuan's going to perth.. i will miss her so darn much. i saw her for a little while today cos she visited. i don't know what to say. i was like dumb. i don't wanna cry. i just hugged her tight. and we very qiao-ly got the same phone on the same day. awws. sweet!
i love you dear sister! please take care!

hi 2009!

2009-01-02T15:06:00.003+08:00

bdd is preparing for his new year speech!

he puts on his sunglasses, styled his little hair and with a drop of saliva,

he says...

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

it's 2009 already!

i hope this brand new year will be even more enriching and fulfilling.

i sincerely thanked auntie elaine, uncle ang and bd for the trip =)

it was a trip about

learning
getting close to history, nature and people
dong, dong, dong, dong, dong and even more dong
understanding and accepting another culture

i got really emotional visiting the War Remnants Museum in Ho Chi Minh City. by just looking at the pictures and reading the descriptions are enough for me. i seemed to feel the pain and helplessness. those pictures spoke for themselves. heroes and innocents were sacrificed. it was devastating.

pictures of the trip? later~

laundry? later~

babysitting? erm... now!

auntie susan and best friend are coming over now!

ciao!

flyflyfly

2008-12-24T10:50:00.005+08:00

just a little blogging before the taxi comes..

know what is bdd's favourite snack?

my knee caps!

watch this!!! bdd love playground.

and he got some "special/unique" moves of his own..

love him!

*

flight's at 2.30pm.

how much do you think this is?

hiaks hiaks hiaks...

i have one million and i am going to spend it all!!!

take care all.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

MUACKS =)

mixed

2008-12-16T14:47:00.007+08:00

the headache nearly killed me. it was so bad that i text this to bd: "i really feel like stabbing a knife through the head or just jump down.." it scared the sh*t outta him. that was some serious bad headache i ever had before examination. scared-ed me alot man!

skip the talking about the papers because what i say does not match the results which stunned me and bd. i was left with tears of joy while hugging bdd tightly.

the results.

i was really anxious to know the result of Business Statistics. (because it's a retake module!) but when i know i pass it and even got distinction. happiness is the word.

*

the little one in my house turned 1 year old already!

come on baby! walk walk!!!

stop playing with the shoe!

time flies like they all say...

wanna see bdd a year ago?

he was so small and sleepy..

i want to cry now. breathe in*
let's continue..

he got so much in his bag now, he makes me smile all the time..

see! he's so cute!!! his tongue tongue!

i am talking about the small one.
i love him. and him =)

*

21.11.08
i had some private time with bd.

away from everything and everyone.

*

it has been holiday since the last paper 6.11.
school's starting on 5.1.09.

what have i been doing most of the time?

hmms...

babysitting?
reading?
knitting?

oh. yes, it has been some

babysitting,
reading,
knitting,

and

babysitting,
reading,
knitting.

so fun right? i know.

books by Thubten Chodron interest me alot. questions are being answered and doubts are explained in a way which i agree, accept and understand.

and... as of today. i want to cut down or eliminate all vulugarities coming out of me. i want to be more calm and composed.

it should be a nice/good change.

vietnam trip on 24th for a week. i pray for safety and enjoyment.

angeline is going taiwan this saturday. safe trip my dear!

xuan's in perth now.. she will be back here then back there in feb. aww... i will miss her so much. i love her. she's my dear sister whom i hold close to my heart. i am still knitting! oh gosh. my knitting skills sucks la!.

yan's in m'sia now. tmr is enrollment day and i don't have yan with me! humphs! i want my girlfriend back! but i don't want to go shopping with her!! hees. because everything become so tempting and i will get so vulnerable and un-disciplined when i am shopping with her.. awws..

how's melissa doing?

i wanna thank xue yu for the lovely chinese msg she sent me =)

oh. i still havent had lunch/dinner with mich ah ma!

where in the world is my kaka?

and oh. tomeck took a quit at his phd. he's leaving tonight.

this was tomeck on this first day here.

this is tomeck after 4 months plus...

bd. are you attracted by the lady?
the guy in white is certainly attracted to tomeck.. hees.
anyway, tomeck insisted that he wants to be Santa.

has the little baby woken up after 2 hours? i think i heard him...

ciaos!

f the headache

2008-10-04T07:45:00.002+08:00

last night... i had a fucking bad headache which hurts really bad. like the eye ball also affected and the left side of the head. i had no choice but to wake my soundly asleep mummy up to help me massage..

thank you mummy. i love you...

who in the world invented headache?

oh no!

2008-10-01T23:53:00.001+08:00

something is so freaking wrong! i can't download things/programs/whatsoever. oh my.. this is not normal. my laptop is faulty.

i wanna scold the F word again. like now.

F!!!

update!

2008-10-01T12:11:00.019+08:00

12 sep
12:19AM- on msn.
ykk: i delicate this to u http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oAuOpSU4xUI&feature=related

thank you ykk!
=)

night,
dinner, pool, bowling, coffee & chill with bd and his boss.
bd. forget abt bowling la. i am so much better than you!!! hahahaa..
jason taught me how to spin the ball! *spin spin!
then we took the last train!

13 sep
that day. of the month. arghs.
bd made hot choc from small pieces of choco he got from europe.
tasted so much nicer than the starbucks! (in a way...)
=)

16 sep
emo kp. since when am i obliged to listen to you and make you cry in the middle of the night?
/shakes head x100000000000000000000000000000000000

17 Sep
SHC5081. uncle, you the best. i talked so much to you and you shared so much. oh man. you made my day.
bd picked me from yan's. hees. if not i had to camp at her place.

18 Sep
stayed in sch till like 11pm. broke the 9pm record.. haha. poor yan was down with flu..
late dinner at EAT.

19 Sep
submitted DC. wa. at last man. /shakes head.
i met lee hwee. talked abt how lazy we are la. haa. she's lovely. i hugged her before she go-go.
went raffles city sc for dinner at Shokudo. damn the tempura are like making me puke the moment i think of it...
tried my luck. walked into FC and saw irene jie jie! hees. *hugged her.
tried luck again.. walked into robinson's Michal Negrin counter and saw jing jing! hees. *hugged her too!

it's good to show some love and spread smiles around. makes people feel better.

but aweeeee...
later in the night, i tossed and turned and
tossed and turned..
and rushed to the toilet and VOMIT.

jap food is not for me...

20 sep
early dinner at farm mart with popo, mummy, bdd and bd. hees.

my bd with my bdd.

bdd was so tired that he fell asleep in th car ride home..

cute lil piggie.

i tried my luck at like 12 something am. go to the damn
SIM website.. look under the assignment results... and i nearly fainted...
BS!!! DI!!! ok la. if it's HD i would really faint. at least with a DI after waiting for so long, i can go to sleep with a smile.

well. s-o is nice! i wish it was longer!

21 sep
brunch at the : "i heard a alot about it" Heng Heng Chicken Rice at Clementi. it was yummy. the roast chicken was... wa.....
no wonder so many years still can make a come back.

bd gave me his first gen ipod. no kidding. still in tip-top condition ... but now that it is in my hands and care.. hard to guarantee anything.. hees.
supper at mac.
aiya. why supper man? supper=unhealthy mac also=unhealthy!

22 sep
with korean food-ed, nachos and coke
i watched Wall E.

it has a message. it has love. it has life. it has a meaning.

save the earth. let's do our part. as much as possible.

23 sep
bought 3 hair bands for $3. oh well.i miss this kind of $1 deals. that day bd bought one which cost like $1.90. rip off la. wa lao wei. hairband also must increase price meh?
anyway, i bought greenie! the one which i .... spilt into half. one pinkie and one purplie!

i want all the colours!!!

24 sep
diary of a maid- send Sir's pants for alteration.

later in the night.. from ykk to me:

25.09 1.08AM

thank you again ykk! =)

25 sep
wee. submitTED MR!

i received an email. it was a reply of my email on the 1sep. it was with regards to my DC project. she took 24 days to reply saying those information that i asked about was confidential.

oh well. thank you so much for your reply ah..
i really have no comments.

Sir came to collect pants.

h.k. u for 4 years and 6 months!

Happy Birthday my dear mummy! i love you~~~~~~~~

26 sep
i smell tennis. after so damn long. i can hit some tennis balls! it was some 8-10pm at mich ah ma's. thankyou for always helping to book court ah ma.
you have been so ah ma-ly.. love you!

then we chiong back to watch F1 practice..

it was Auntie Elaine's birthday.
Happy Birthday. i wish you good health and happiness.

then supper at the unhealthy place again.

and yes. it's bdd's 10th months old!

happy 10months old bdd!

he's standing tall and proud to be 10 months old!

i love you. i know you love me.
i can tell from the bib =p

27 Sep
saw renhao, kp and andre.
i seriously dont think vincent and kp lookalike.
vincent more handsome lor.

went whitelink to settle stuff.

and and and... can't believe it.. bd bought me a MNG shorts!
damn the salesgirl at Marina say dont have size... &^^$#^&#^$*
went to Suntec and TADAAAAH~ new piece somemore..
/shakes head.
dont bloody lie to me like that.

bd bought lego car-car.. he fever..
i bought bd a steal. a nice Nike polo tee. hees.
p.s: i still M size of the Nadal singlet!!!

28 Sep
heng heng ah! heng heng chicken rice for lunch! yums
teatime at Ikea. so long never go there le.. changes. well, change is a must.
went queensway, got a grip and i hope that grip wont give me blisters!

bd was having F1 fever.
he wanted to make his lego version of fernando alonso's mclaren car-car.
but before he could do so...

i was making my killing machine! hahaa
it's called the ultimate crazy killer.

then bd said: "aeh, break it up. i need the parts le!"
then me: "fine fine fine. let me kill you first! *fire ultimate crazy killer! *fire"

and then. after some time... TaDAH!

it's done!

doesn't look like lor.

bd, you got cheated of your money! haha.

ok.. now it is time for the....

THE FIRST NIGHT RACE IN F1 HISTORY!

lotsa drama. drama mama. drama kings they are..

proud of the Singaporeans who pulled the event together..

next year, bd is so set on going. even i am motivated to go. $1500 or a kind sponsor?

29 Sep
vincent is going to step foot on BALI! oh my. i am going to faint. i wanted to ask him to pack me in his luggage but aiya... my legs are too long...haa.

well brother. safe trip to and fro! you are damn sweet la!

30 sep
mummy and bdd go raffles city sc with me! it was some sleepy long ride la.
scgs and acs after school hours. damn.. traffic jam.
bdd was so tired.

he fell asleep in mummy's arms before boarding the bus home..

the east-erners say thursday, 2/10 do project at TP.
ok. why not. new environment. more inspirations.

1 Oct- i am really pissed.

if you dont know how to look after a baby.
don't bloody give birth to one!
you are just taking the easy way out.

oh. i forgot to blow the porridge.
oh. i burnt the baby's tongue.
oh. the baby must not be hungry already after crying like every 5 other minutes..
oh. he is yawning but he doesn't look like he is going to sleep.
oh. maybe i shall pour back the porridge and feed him some milk.
oh. his nappy is wet. nevermind la.
oh. he wants to sleep now.
oh. i don't know what to do now.
oh. i shall like throw my temper and be mean.
oh. i shall put the blame on someone else.
oh. i shall make the baby cry again.
oh. i better call my wife and complain.
oh. why do all these happen when i look after the baby?
oh. i make such a lousy father.

argh.
both you and your mother get on every of my freaking nerves. bloody hell la. seriously.
fuck off la. seriously. fuck the mother fucker hell off! and shut the hell up. for good.

i hate to have such an agony or hatred. but,
you just have to make it so much easier for me to get irritated more.
you just make me want to get out of the house and not see all these.
you just make my hatred grow and grow and grow and grow and grow!

you just have to, right?

the two of you can make my head explode and scream inside!
i just wish i am deaf, blind, dumb whenever i am stuck at home with you 2.

you two make a greaaaaaaaaaaaat team. keep it up!

+

arghs. and right now i am so hungry. don't make me angry.
i am so sian now la.

i just want to faint.

and no. i don't feel like doing BB now..
dear team mates, give me some motivation.
i like no oil already... cant add oil..

i think i am imaging myself to live in a fantasy world.

i am cinderella right?
near. well, i am a maid. same as her what.

so i am cinderella. confirmed.

but where are my glass heels huh?

*dates to panic and get very stressed for:

24 oct - BS
25 oct - DC
06 nov - BB
10 nov - MR

well, you might have guessed it. those are exam dates.
SCREAAAAMMMMMMMMMM!

jia you!

2008-09-09T17:07:00.014+08:00

i need to see bdd to relieve some stress...

of my bdd:

he likes to...

stick out his little red tongue

he likes to chew his "toot toot"

check the cute heart-shaped knee guards i got him.

and... he loves to...

sleep like the Chinese character "大"!!! oh my..

i can't seems to upload a video of bdd saying "mum mum mum"...
arghs!
anyway, he can say "mum mum mum"!

*

04.09.08

went shopping at bugis with yan.
went keppel club to have light dinner & night tennis...

happy 4 years and 5 monthsy!

*

05.09.08

breakfast at kap with yan and vincent again!!
i managed 1000 points!!! it's a secret.. hees.

i finally took my long-awaited commission from adecco.
and then there was some shopping again... with yan...

dinner with bd at Far East Plaza's Wasabi Tei. yums.

*

06.09.08

bd's big match!

bd was up against Jack. it was a 3 hours +++ long match... there was 3 sets... and........... bd won!!! it was 3-6 6-1 7-6
good game!!!

we had both our lunch and dinner at Bukit Timah Market. hahahaaa... buay sian ah? buay la.. so long never eat there already...

*

07.09.08

dim sum at Goodwood Park's MIN JIANG! yummyliciously-crazy!!!! oh i love dim sum and dim sum love me!!!

at night, back at bd's place, we had the cut cake ceremony =)

make your wishes!

*

08.09.08

was with yan. at great world. oh what else could it be? project la.. wa piangs wei... anyway, i picked up some guts and courage after some lemonade and called the Manager of Auntie Anne's and yan talked to the auntie working there. hees. we so cute and adorable, please don't resist
us...

hees. see, we so smiley de lor. not dao at all...

later in the evening...
i picked up the birthday boy from work...

he so happy that he kissed me in-front of "nicholas tse"!

happy birthday bd!

we had a greaaaaat dinner at Dozo.
service was of excellence grade.
food was interestingly fusion type.
food was nice.yums yums yums.

but then my account got one hole...
and i was telling yan i need to go sell blood.
hees.

but well, it was worth-it-all!

hugs&kisses =)

*

09.09.08

in jh's shades. i want one! hahaha.

jia you people!

*

10.09.08

uberly stressful. headache. fu*cked up brain. losing thoughts. i miss my ma-zi! hahaha. and boss made me felt impt for 2 seconds! ahahaa.

jia you.jia you.jia jia yous!.

i believe in postiveness, encouragement and bonds.
i believe in helping, sharing and talking.
i believe we can nail it all.

bring it on! bring it all on!

in the month of sept, i will...

2008-09-03T18:53:00.002+08:00

30/08

jon's ah ma's 100th birthday! happy birthday ah ma! =)

31/08
dinner at old airport road hawker was not good enough! there was so much to EAT! guess what jon and i had? nah. you can't possibly guess it all..

we had:

cha kway teow
wanton noodles
ba kut teh
satay
bbq chicken wings
rojak

yes. just the two of us. i could have eaten more but he wouldn't let me..

01/09

breakfast session with angel is always nice! then was offfff to projecting at yan's.
sorry sista, i can't have lunch with you. you know i would loved to! arrange another date ok?
*hugs

02/09

breakfast with vincent and yan at kap. hees.
bro, i want your OMNIA! hahaha.

03/09

happily went adecco before heading to yan's, thinking i could get my commission, BUT! my another bf was at a meeting! damn. wei liang, i want my money!!! what a wasted trip.. i waited bloody long for 700 lei...

disapointedly, i head to yan's.. to my amazment, boss da bao my most expensive packet of economic bee hoon in my life so far... it costs $5.50! wa lao wei. economic meh? think the auntie counted wrongly la. anyway, my beehoon got egg, hotdog, otak, chicken wing, cabbage and luncheon meat... (is is a lot to cost that much?) hmms.. ponders....
my day was later made better with jasmine green tea flavoured bubble tea which jin ho bought...

aiya. aiya. aiya. why is the rain getting heavier and heavier???? WHY?

anyway,
now, besides having to control myself on shopping, eating is another thing i have to be disciplined about.

*

dates which are fu*king impt:

19th sept - submission of DC project
25th sept - submission of MR project
4th oct - submission of BB project

omb.omb.omb!!!

jia you jia you jia jia you ah!!!

omb= oh my buddha

xoxoxo

live your life to the fullest dear girl.

2008-08-27T16:49:00.002+08:00

i tear for an old ah ma selling tissue paper by the road side or on bridges. and i tear when i see this video of young Ye Eun. not because she's pitiful, but because she could touch my heart. she made me think why some people are behaving so inhumanly while little angels like her, despite the disablilties, could still find hope in this cruel and unfair world. she is brave. i pray for her from the bottom of my heart and may she live each day, happily. i guess i yearn to think and feel like her because she is so pure and innocent..

august rain *updated

2008-08-27T14:49:00.009+08:00

26/08/08

dear bdd,
Happy 9 months!

bdd, i love you,,,

*

people, why don't we just join the ten dollar club(before jin ho makes me cry again)?

happy members of the club.

er.. boss! what you doing? see how much yan likes jinho..

look at jin ho...

aiya. lousy camera i used to take the photos. arghs.
jin ho! send me the ones i took on your phone!!!

*updated: and he did send the photos!

so damn much clearer photo of us 5 =)

jia you jia you jia jia you ok? *hugs us

*

24/08/08

sweeeeet surprise from yan!

lovely box.

and when i opened it up...

it's a "SLR" necklace! i love it!!! x1000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000

yan is really super sweet and she touches my heart. she knew that i would love to have the necklace and she got it for me!!!

thank you so very muchy yan!!! *hugs!!! *muacks! =)

*

21/08/08.

bdd cried and wants to follow me when i went out of the house! orhhh..

*

of yan and i. Lunching.

19/08/08

The Atrium @ Orchard

what she had:

Beef Mozza-Tofu & Tiramisu.

what i had:

Seafood Aglio Olio & Cocoa Mosaic

what we shared:

Potato Wedges with Melted Cheese Dip.

and then.. we were off to some hair business at lush hair creations! hees.

hugs yan! we shall eat more and more and more!!!

AHHH!!! the sky is fallin' !!! somebody save us!

*

P-R-O-J-E-C-T-S maaadnesss!
give me more projects, NOT!

18/08/08

my mysterious-burgerly boss, zcm.

project mates... and er. where's jin ho?

let's jia you jia you jia you! =)

*

thankies to all who have helped me with the survey =)

*

16/08/08

i was at kumon. i was at great world city. i was a magician's assistant for a while. i was at T3. oh boy, i could be busier than i thought..

bd, it's really good to have you back =)

*

14/08/08

poor bdd. had to see a doctor. he's down with flu.. poor thing. my heart aches..
be strong bdd! *muacks

*

that fateful night - 22/08/08

i have to separate this from the rest above because it will totally kill the mood which the above is trying to convey. . .

this is for you. (maybe for your gf as well)

die.rot.hell.and.in.
you.fu*ker.bitch.of.son.a.mother.ass.jack.whore.pathetic.
k.n.n.b.c.c.b.

and i think your brains are stuck in your gf's pu**y. since you like that word so much. that's dedicated just for you. and i think you really have perfecto eye sight. trust you to see so damn fu*king well in the dark.

for you, i want to learn Muay-thai even more. for you, i want to learn kick boxing. for you, i want to be ms. hilter. for you, i want to learn how to torture someone slowly and gently. for you, i want to take away your breath, literally. for you, i want to see you close your eyes slowly and never to open them again. for you, i will shed some crocodile tears. for you, i will smile after you are gone, forever.

EX 83**

what a lovely 4 digit number.
i think i need to offer some fruits and joss sticks to you..
oh. you want some red candles? how about some white ones?
you need a new car? i could burn it for you. what is your favourite color?

you are so welcome.

knnbccb.

argh. i wasted so much brain cells thinking how to let you die slowly.

i wasted much breathe cursing and swearing at you that i think i am going to have a bloody sorethroat.

and...

i think i have let your mother down. ohh,

i am going to get over the incident now. i will try as hard as i can.

i don't wish to see you on the road anytime soon.

maybe i will see you in July next year. till then. say goodbye!.

to hell with road bullies.

warmed

2008-08-14T21:38:00.003+08:00

yan was really sweet to me today!

she bought me hot chocolate. awwwws. it meant something special to me..
that cup of hot choc. gave me energy to survive kumon(i was tired and didn't have dinner)..

thank you yan. though it's just a cup of hot choc., it touches and warm my heart because someone remembered what i said and actually cared for me. it was real sweeeeetness! i always remember what others say and dote on others.. didn't know it felt great to be doted too.. awwwwwwwwwws.... i appreciate what you did very much. *hugs. and i thank you for you =)

lovely hot choc.

of yan and i =)

*

to my angel: even though it differs from what you saw on their webpage, at least now you know what to expect and not to buy from there le lor. *hugs ok? =)

always expect the unexpected.

of wine and sharing

2008-08-13T15:01:00.004+08:00

yesterday afternoon, jinho made me cry during lunch time with just a short sentence of words. i sort of felt it there and then and couldn't control. just had to let tears flow. please la jinho. take things S.L.O.W whatever and whoever it is in future. enjoy life now and smile! *hugs

yesterday night.. vincent bought a bottle of red wine and a bottle of white wine and showed up at my place! we finished up the white wine while my parents drank a little bit of red ones.. i still can't believe that we so 3-8 lor. can chat from 8 something to near 1 am.. drink and talk, drink and talk. it's nice though. and as good friends, we listened and we shared.

nice day!

=)

i really miss my bd. wails!

STOP

2008-08-11T20:42:00.003+08:00

i guess i have to stop shopping...
window shopping doesn't kill but impulse-buying is very very dangerous! oh my gosh. i need to save. i need to stop this: "i-got-money-i-can-shop" behavior.

i need to save, i need to save, i need to save!!!

discipline runqing, discipline, runqing.
oh no! why "discipline" does not goes well with my name!

argh.

anyway, i shall stop at Zara.
and yan, please help me too!

-the end-

freaking is not the word

2008-08-10T14:13:00.002+08:00

i am so freaking un-happy. replace freaking with a common "F" word i use. i so wanna rant. i so wanna get someone to beat the shit outta him or just dislocate his every single joint. i so wanna see blood shed like a fountain. i so wanna see all his teeth flying in the air like shooting stars. i so wanna so wanna so wanna see him disappear into the thin air just like a magic show.

that's my magic trick of the day. enjoy.
let me hear some applause? thank you.
*
i know i am sick. i really am.
i know i am being exaggerating but i just wanna vent my frustrations.

last but not least. to hell with him.

ah! i love sundays. love it.

woohoo! wonderful july

2008-08-02T20:42:00.044+08:00

13th.July.2008. Bd's graduation.

I am so damn proud of him...

my "smarto-scholar" graduated!

*

22nd.July.2008.Dinner at Jack's Place.

it was a cosy, fun and relaxing dinner with my mummy, auntie susan and my angel! i really appreciate the present they got for me... it was lovely,lovely,lovely! =)

*

24th.July.2008.Dinner at Barfly.

starter.
the scallop is fu*king big and juicy.
the white tuna was yummylicious!
*drools.

soup.
just which dumbdeedeedumb says that it was tomato soup?
*shakes head.

main course.
i felt sorry for the lamb..
but my stomach felt so damn good.

dessert.
oh man. what can i say?
i love desserts!

when i paid the bill, my heart hurt a lil. but it was all-worth-it.

*

25th.July.2008.Surprised back at home.

thank you for dropping by and surprising me!

one of my best present!
we were wearing the same shirt!
*mmmmmuacks him!

*

hello my cute lil botak prince charming...
Happy EIGHT months old!!!

check out his 2 cute lil teeth.

taken by "Goodmorning jie jie"

hey lil botak! =)

*

26th.July.2008 (night) Party at Cafe del Mar.

it was small. it was fun. it was high. it was full of laughters and smiles.

my face is almost the same in every picture. bear with it. here goes...

happy 21st to myself.

choc fudge MADNESS.

66 of them.

bakerzin's macaroon

next up...the crazy people who came!

SIM mates.

jinho aka running. zhen cong aka ran. yan. me. hr & gf (bi er)

vincent. renhao.

happy 21st to vincent!

lulu. HJM jessie.

lulu. HJM jessie.

my bros.

see. kp is wearing his cap..

wanna see him with no cap?

tada!

one more time!

he treasured his hair ALOT. spent lots of money on it..
now. it's ALL GONE... Orhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

AFMM.

mich covered me completely in the second photo..

erm. something happened.

only angel and i know... hees.

she's the youngest.

yet she's our mich ahma.

mel mel.

always keep in contact ya? hugs.

angel just sent me some '07 photos.

lets's review afmm on 12th March. 2007.

haha. look at me and mich ahma!

i heart them,

i will always hold them close.

afmm loves Cafe del Mar. 7thMay.2007.

just the 4 of us on a quiet night there.

back to party..

welcome to Singapore!

me and tomeck.
we shy la! thanks for the smile!

yan!

it's yan and i! how will i survive in SIM w/o her?
hugs yan =)

magic of the day.

thank you jeremy! =)
(yes lulu and bf, i see you two behind...hees)

this is singapore.

let's YUM SENG for my sake!

xoxo to everyone (bd, angeline, de xiang, michelle, melissa, yan ling, jeremy, zhen cong, jin ho, han rong, bi er, xiao chang, vincent, yong jia, ren hao, kok ping, lulu, lulu's bf, tomeck, wei jie, jessie, weili and cute little pixie!) who attended =)

lastly, i was not drank at all. maybe i was really happy and mood plays a part too. so, make me drunk next time!

tomeck said: "closer, closer, closer, CLOSER!"

my sweeeeeeeeeeeet bd.

thank you tomeck for taking the photo.
thank you so much bd for everything!
i really mean my thanks to you bd6 =)
hug me tightly okay?

*

thank-yous to the lovely 25 people who wished me happy birthday.

michelle ahma was first!
bd
kai jie
jessie
yu xuan
jin ho
lulu
andrew
adeline
mel mel
xueyu
chris
jun jie
jimmy
yan ling
yong jia
cui yun
angeline
wei jie
xiao chang
zhen cong
ivan
ibnu
kanan
kok ping

AND 25 happens to be my fav. number.

*

BIG BIG BIG thank yous for all the lovely presents which i had received before and after my birthday. it was all very very very much treasured and appreciated.

lastly, thank you all for being with me and being my friend and being in my life.

loves loves loves =)

embracing

2008-07-11T17:06:00.002+08:00

i am embracing.
this is my life. i take control.
it's my happiness. i shall have it.
no one can and no one shall take all these away from me.
take it and you shall not live.
take it and i shall make you wish that you were never born.
any attempt to destroy me and i will destroy you first.
i will let you go back to where you belong - hell.

i don't want to sound harsh. i don't want to hurt anyone. i am actually scared that all these beautiful beautiful things will just disappear overnight.. so please, don't attempt to hurt me first. i really appreaciate things.

i really love my friends. i listen to them, i talk to them, i hang out with them, i laugh with them, i cry with them, i hug them. i treasure the ones who are real to me and i will keep them close to my heart for i really cherish the friendships and bonds we shared.

i really love my close family members. i want them to be safe and sound. i want to watch my lil prince charming grow up into a healthy little boy and then a teenager and then a man... i want him to know i really love him with my heart and i will take care of him and watch him grow up. i really love my mummy!! she's an amazing woman who always make me worry for her. i love my grandmothers. i love my late grandfathers and my uncle who loved me alot. though i am not mentioning all the family members but i do love and care for them..

i really love mss. i need him in my life and i want him in my life..

don't take all these away. don't destroy me. let me live and breathe with my air. let me just close my eyes gently and when i open them, i can still have all my all with me. let me be stronger and carry on the next phrase of my life..

*

i met up with my pri sch friend- xue yu. it was lovely. so many a times i said i miss this so and so and that so and so but i never made it to meeting them. now i moved the first step. next, i really want to meet cui yun. life's unpredictable and i want to cherish and make an extra effort to not let friendship slip away..

*

i was really happy on - 06.07.08. it was one of the happiest day of my life. i thank mss for doing the things that he did.. i never want any happy ending. i want a happy starting =)
now, i have something i can hold on to and can live everyday embracing and smiling to myself about .. i am really happy. H.A.P.P.Y.

it's mine

2008-07-11T15:47:00.024+08:00

30.06.08. AFMM re-united!

mel and mich ah ma!

angel and i!

the 4 of us.

*

08.07.08. Kboxed with yan, cong, ho.

cong.

ho.

me and yan.

han rong is missing from the picture!!!
next time must FULL attendance okay?

Spot the difference!

it's jin ho's suayness acting up..

yup. let's just put a "X" in our memory. hahaha!

*

it's official!
Mel and Qing's friendship day- 10.07.08.

smiles.

our token of friendship and love =)

*

it's the BOTAK BABY BOY ATTACK!

huh? what botak baby boy attack?

i am a happy botak baby boy!

who did this to me??

anyway, thank you alice auntie for this feeding chair.

kimono for the lil prince.

gift from mich ah ma.

someone is a lil jap..

booo. i wonder who put this on me?

wait a minute.. i know who!

love him. *muacks!

*

it's my day.

25th of July is my 21st. it will have to be my say and my call (regarding any form of celebration). it shall be how i want it to be. please respect me and my decisions.

when that day comes, i will thank my mummy for everything.

i have to thank her for the painful labour which she had to go through 21 years ago.
i have to thank her for her upbringing, her love, her care and concern.

that special day shall be celebrating my love for her and her love for me because we kept each other strong all these years and we grew up together and she means a whole great deal to me. she's my everything and so that special day, is the day that she will take full credit for turning me into an adult..

i love you mummy. i always have, i always will and i will continue to do so. you are ever so important to me in my life and i really thank you for bringing me into this world =)

sha la la

2008-06-29T15:56:00.029+08:00

let's talk about the movies..

on 26/06, i watched Wanted. had to admit. from time to time i didn't felt it was a great awesome show but i still wanna be an assassin like the ones you watch in Wanted.. sweet~

let's talk about Zohan!

i don't know about you but he did blew me away.

i want to get silky smooth from him. he's goddamnit funny. i laughed so hard, i wasn't sitting straight.! Question. you like disco? haaa.

and in the incredible hulk (which made me dizzy), there was a small bit of IronMan!

well. next you have to watch Captain America, Thor....... cos they will eventually lead to the avengers movie. gosh.

kungfu panda is something kids should watch. never learn bad. be contented. dream big and believe in it and work towards it and don't be too greedy or greed will hunt you down and kill you. (okay, this last part of what i just said is not meant for kids.)

you want some kungfu fighting?

*

best buys from the Hokkaido/Tokyo trip.

1. nike tennis shoes.
2. adidas tennis skirt.

both cost S$26-$30 each. it was a steal!!! we went to some outlet store and got them. it was crazy because there was Tommy Hilfiger, Coach (wallets going for like S$200), Nine West, Roxy, Billabong, Swatch, Nike, Adidas, Triumph, Crocodile, Asics, Levi's, .... i went totally crazy because i have NO MONEY to buy the stuff i want.. but it was okay(comforted myself), i got 2 real good deals which i need..

musical inspiration.

i got one for myself. one for my angel. one for my xuan! the one which is in a wooden case is from mss. it was a lovely lovely gift! i love it! thank you!

lastly, i got the above umbrella for free. people don't want to bring this umbrella on board as it's troublesome so they left it in a place for people who need/want it. i got one in perfect condition. so happy cos it's free and i bought it all the way back here. hees. silly hor? my angel sure know how i felt. hees.

*

i had to plant a deeeeeeeeeeeeep kiss on him.

mmmmmmmuaCKS! happy 7 months old!

Do you know how to hold your own milk bottle?

he does.

he's fully sponsored.

bib- courtesy of my angel
pjs- courtesy of my xuan
booties- courtesy of me!

first taste of porridge!

he was feeling weird i could tell but the more he had, the more he wanted!!

Do you love your big sister?

hm...

keeping me in suspense.

i made him laugh out loud!

thanx, that was a satisfying reply.
you sure love your big sister very much!!

someone's looking great in PINK!.

baby! now. where did you hide my KAPO?!

hmm... i don't know!..

my cute as ever lil prince charming and his new playmate.

why are you looking at me?

oh. you want to know how to feel about the playmate?

let me just taste it first...

well.. not bad. can you just let me enjoy it in privacy?!

*

HAPPY 21st my dear best friend =)

i love ya* muacks!

*

tennis session with my angel at mich ah ma's place. 23/05

me and my coach.

and when he's not my coach =)

move along

2008-06-08T15:32:00.056+08:00

i know it's too late to regret or cry over spilled milk now. too late. still thinking about appealing but i don't really want to hold so much hope. well. what's over is over and i hope i make myself even better this time round. nobody likes to fail. i don't wanna fail either but well.. there's always a FIRST time.

*

i am gonna be random again because this is the mood i am in now.
i don't wanna recall the exact details. don't ask me which place, what time and when was that. i just wanna share/show some of the pictures, so just see the pictures okay?

*~*

it was 9.7 degree celsius at one of the first rest stop.

*

the foodstuff/meals..

first little taste of Japanese's snack. in between queh lapis lookalike, there are beef, bacon and prawn. it's sweet(the cake) and salty(the fillings) altogether. yums.

behold.

this is good stuff! fu*king nice!!! yums yums yums. takoyaki!

lunch time!

first meal at hokkaido.

dinner time!

no. this meal does not include the pair of white socks..

it includes... ...

me and my "kor kor" in the funny outfit!

it's machi time!

i mean muah chee time!

first dinner.

i cleared everything in the tray. and there was this really nice tempura which came after i took this picture. but never mind as my stomach will always remember it because it was really really crispy and nice!

smoky dinner.

teppanyaki/bbq time!

lunch with a view of the pacific ocean. wow. (lunch)

yes. what you see is what you get. one whole salmon fish for 4 to share.

fishy business. (lunch)

yummy fish. i have never finished a whole fish by myself..

crappy/crabby lunch. with jokes by a pri. sch. girl.

it's all crab. but i like this meal. simple and nice and filling. no need to dig the crab meat myself. hees. it's all dug out for us!

~the no-enemy ramen.

the signboard.

it is actually quite a small restaurant with only about 20 bar-top seats.

description placed just at entrance.

tell you this tell you that first. hees.

next came the real thing.

the soup was very different from what i had before. it was yummy. we had to slurp the noddles loudly to show appreciation and that it was oiishii!!!

the inside of the restaurant.

we just turned around and took this picture. see... the place is really small and cramped up. but nevertheless. there is always long queue outside the restaurant..

*

the STRAWBERRY FARM!
i personally don't like strawberries because they are sour and i can't really take/stand sour stuff but this trip to the strawberry farm made me LOVE strawberries!!! they are not in the least sour! they are yummyliciously SWEEEEEEEEEET~ yums.

don't be deceived by it's looks. it is a FU*KING SWEET lil thing. SWEET/SUI- AH!

i love strawberries! muacks!

some colorful combination of flowers/plantings near the farm.

my grandma will like this picture because got flowers means nice.

*

cherry cherry blossoms!

under the cherry blossom tree with my "kor kor".

note: next time when you offer someone to take picture for them under a cherry blossom tree, please take more of the cherry blossoms than the people!!! the main character is supposed to be the cherry blossoms not the two of us! but still, thanx very much. heng ah. at least got some of the cherry blossoms..

*

spring springy water!

look at this guy! he got like 8 bottles to fill! all 1.5litres one lei! wa piang wei. this spring water is good stuff i reckon. it is further confirmed because one of the family on the tour bought like 5 containers (not water bottles) where each one can contain 5 litres of spring water. i nearly faint.

*

at the temple. we pray pray to the goddess of mercy..

i bought this stick and wrote my name so that the monks can pray for my family to be safe. and of course, i prayed for all my dear friends. those working, in army, studying, in relationship and blah blah blah..world peace of course. and i prayed for Zhen Cong Ming too! for his.. (secret) sorry ran i didn't get you the charm. but i prayed with all my heart for you lei. hees.

*

music box museum. lovely place.

these sure look like real sushi. but they are musical boxes!

after looking around and deciding which one to get.

we went to have some coffee.

we can keep the cups! hees.

the view outside the cafe..

spider-cat!

*

everynight we change different hotel/resort.
below is one of the best view we had outside our room...

then at night, there was a 20 minutes fireworks display from 2 boats on the sea.

*
randoms.

hello hello!

biggy yummy ice cream!

cute pokemon aeroplane!

i am a seaweed girl!

foot-spa by the road anyone?

squidy ink's ice cream!

hees. we got the side-by-side match.

a batch of cute little foxes and raccoons.

matching polo tees.

it's really cold as the wind is really strong up there..
the view from... "i really forgot where, i really don't know" - provided by my "kor kor"

Oita Trappist cookies.
to all the trappist out there : "Jia You!"

*

i had fun. seen many new things and experienced things like never before.

big thank-yous to auntie elaine and uncle ang.
thank you from the bottom of my heart.

thank you =)

thank you mss for being with me throughout. i heart you.

*

auntie elaine says next up... is vietnam.

ouched

2008-06-07T23:13:00.002+08:00

charlie. that really hurt!

and my heart hurt just as much. why in the world do i have to fail? why charlie?

flying off

2008-05-29T22:30:00.001+08:00

i am at T1 now. using the free internet access and blogging! i am flying off soon!

ciaoz.

xoxo =)

fly fly

2008-05-28T15:16:00.007+08:00

he got this super blur face which i managed to snap just before he go take his jab aka "piu piu" (baby language)

six months old.

six months and a day old.

and i just wanna upload this video. he cute la he.

love him!

*
tomorrow night i will fly-fly, flyfly, fly fly!.
don't miss me too much you people.
i will miss you all though. hees =)

xoxo

fascinated

2008-05-25T18:16:00.012+08:00

first thing first. if you are bored or if you are in love, or not.

watch- MADEofHONOR

this show sets me thinking while laughing..

*

just tuesday, i had dinner with my sista-xuan. love her love her, love her. saw xiao wei too! hees.

just thursday, i had 2 dinners with yong jia and angeline. it was a fun day! just 3 of us.

and yesterday, i had dinner with yong jia, vincent, michelle ah ma, angeline and her bf, dexiang and of course, mss. it was great. i felt like i didn't eat much but oh well, a lot of the times i feel like i didn't eat much. hees. having group dinner with close friends are just- nice.

then tomorrow night, we are having tennis training at dexiang's place. wees. more, more and more tennis!

this month had been roller-coaster for me.. well, since when life had not been a roller-coaster? anyway, madness la. my mum had fainted, hit her head but refused to go for X-ray. scared the shit outta me. exams ended in a most no-confident manner. working with really sore and full-of-blisters legs. some infamous red-light cruising incident. blah and blah and blah.

but i am lucky. i have my boo. muacks!

i really like tennis. no. correction. i really LOVE tennis man! i must learn this one well. hees.

*

i bought a pair of cutie lil shoes for my lil prince charming.

a. he wants to show you.

b. he feels the texture of the shoe.

c. he checks the sole.

d. he attempts to eat it. (which i didn't let it happen)

*

then he tests out his new baby walker.

on his mark.. steady..

he likes it!

he's the "one" baby i love..
(thank goddess it wasn't the middle finger. he has not been badly influenced yet.. hees)

*

check this out -this 2 cute lil birdies have grown up in just days!
they are fat/cute/chubbyly.

they will be checking out from mss' place in a few more days i suppose. ohh. how cute can they get?

*

yan just msged and told me that she's back! i missed her. after my trip and before yan's and hr's trip, we shall clear our throat to meet up! clearing our throats is a must. ran knows it. run knows it. running knows it. yan knows it. han rong knows it. running, if we meet, you must come! =)

*

4 more days to the lovely trip. i better start packing!

and oh! happy knowing mss for 4 years and 2 months =)

overed

2008-05-10T18:33:00.003+08:00

exams are over as at 09/05/08 at 1.15pm. holidays are officially here. yeah. i just wanna pass all the papers. i just badly want all PASSes.

now is work, work, work. just had work training from 11am to 3pm. tomorrow working at A.M.K. monday got an assignment's setup at shenton way. tuesday is the assisgnment actual date. work work work run qing. earn some money! i seriously need it. but yet i turned down a 3 days work for a "family" event. well, i suppose that "family" event is more important than the work. i wanted to spent "family" time. hees. well, well..

*Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air..

the landlord

2008-04-12T21:43:00.009+08:00

what happens when Will Ferrell meets his landlord?
scroll to the 30th second for a surprise! enjoy!

i just can't get enough of Will Ferrell..

babylicious

2008-04-06T18:19:00.007+08:00

i bought a new shirt and a new toy for my lil prince charming.

can't wait to wear it with him!

the new toy

i will show you how much he likes it..

1) he smiles at it.

2) he checks it out.. by the good old method: tasting.

3)he multi-tasks.
one hand sucking his thumb, the other grabs the toy.

to date he's : 4 months and 11 days old.
cuter. smarter. naughtier.

*

my lil prince charming is making me love him, deeper.

xoxo to him.

getting materialistic

2008-04-02T13:00:00.002+08:00

it's the a to the b to the c to the d to the e to the f to the g to the h to the i to the j... to the z

this entry is all about da brands.
pick any brand from the list below to get me my 21st present.
thankyouverymuchy.

i am very&highly materialistic.
let me break it down.

the a
Abercrombie & Fitch
Agnes B
Alldressedup
Anna Sui
Armani Exchange

the b
Banana Republic
BCBG
Bobbi Brown
Burberry
Bvlgari

the c
Calvin Klein
Cartier
Chanel
Chloe
Christian Dior
Coach

the d
Diesel
Dolce & Gabbana
Donna Karan

the e
Emilio Pucci
Estee Lauder

the f
Fendi
French Connection
Furla

the g
Giorgio Armani
Givenchy
Gucci
Guess

the h
Hermes
Hugo Boss

the i
Isaac Mizrahi
Issey Miyake

the j
Jean Paul Gaultier
Jimmy Choo

the k
Karen Walker
Kenneth Cole
Kenzo

the l
Lacoste
La Perla
Lanvin
Laura Ashley
Levi's
Louis Vuitton

the m
M.A.C
Marc Jacobs
Mariella Burani
Max Mara
Michael Kors
Miu Miu
Mont Blanc
Moschino

the n
Nicole Farhi
Nicole Miller
Nina Ricci

the o
Oscar de la Renta

the p
Paul & Joe
Paul Smith
Pierre Cardin
Prada

the r
Ralph Lauren
Roberto Cavalli

the s
Salvatore Ferragamo
Shu uemura
Sisley
Stila

the t
Tiffany & Co.
TOD's
Tommy Hilfiger

the u
Unconditional
Undercover
United Bamboo

the v
Valentino
Vera Wong
Versace
Victoria's Secret
Vivienne Westwood

the w
Willow
Wunderkind

the y
Yves Saint Laurent

the z
Zac Posen
Zaldy
Zang Toi

*winks

butterflied

2008-03-25T15:32:00.014+08:00

catch/watch semi-pro.
and get tropical!

*

he is the owner/player/coach.
he sings "Love me sexy".
he makes a great promoter and marketing manager.

ittttttttttttttttt's Jackie Moon!

don't you just find him hot?

next up is..

Clarence aka 'Coffee' Black.

isn't he cute? love his hair, totally.
well, we blacks heart each other.

anyway, the movie is superbly uberly funny!
i laughed so hard it hurts.

final conclusion : Fucking Funny.
enough said.

*

barfly is nice.
damn damn nice.
yums yums.
you heard me.

*

random.random.

once bitten
twice shy

thrice cheated
forth clever-er

fifth fucked-up
sixth grossed -out

seventh life
eighth turn

ninth survived
ten dead

*

enough of these shit.

i got a call from my dear mummy that day..

mummy: "i bought U-Zap liao lei. PoPo tried it already. You go home use lei."

me: " -_-" "

*

wanna see my lil prince charming on his forth month?

actually the focus is more on my cute mummy.
love her.
both of them are my precious.

okay. i know i looked damn auntie.
i am a nanny for goddess sake!

happy 4 months old lil one =)

i admired

2008-03-23T17:43:00.003+08:00

i start to feel inferior again.
damn i hate the feeling of that!
i admired and awed at girls like dawn yang and wendy and many others..
you see them so pretty. so perfect. so fine.
having (material) things and (glamorous) life which they are obviously enjoying.

i looked into the mirror and see myself and i got grossed out.
who's that ugly freak?
call me a black. call me disgusting.
laugh at my skin color. comment on me.
everywhere on me is flawed.

i detest my flaws but yet i can't hide them.
i ain't pretty at all.
i lost it all again.

i hate this and i dread that.
i start to feel insane all over again.
all over again.

*

and yes. war is coming. 25 April - da first paper.

my sunday style

2008-03-16T21:30:00.009+08:00

i got a what? a $50 PartyWorld voucher!!! know what that means? i don't have to pay for our singing session on the 20th! wahahahaha! damn happy la! and this also means happiness for yan, zc, hr and ho. heehees. i know you guys love me =)

/dances around.

i met up with my bro - xiao chang, this afternoon for some coffee shop affair. other than being much fitter, he's still my same old bro! i bought him to see my lil prince charming (who managed to turn over today!!!) and they seemed to click. haa.

take care bro. see you ya!

*

my lil prince charming turned!

-tada!

lifting his head and sticking his tongue!

another 10 days and he will turn 4 months old!

below is the top & bottom my dear angel and auntie susan bought.

little tigger. loves him.

*

i love justin timberlake. and this is a serious confession.
i had his song - my love, on repeat mode. i listened over and over and over again and fell in love with him over and over and over again..

applauded.

2008-03-11T20:19:00.003+08:00

i take it off to the girls who make-up and came to class.

-the concealer
-the foundation
-the face powder
-the blusher
-the bronzer
-the eyeliner
-the eye shadow
-the mascara
-the fake eyelashes

after the 1.lights 2.camera 3.action 4.glamor
is the 5.removal process..

wash&wash&wipe&wipe&wash&wash.

the most i will do is: lip balm cos my lips are dry.
and when my mood is uber good - some mascara.

that's all. i know of nothing else.

*

yeah! i got a clear light green file! yipeeEs!
i love greenies.

shalala~

one last thing (change mood).
i got no bloody admirers/suitors/whatever. bleah.

oh no. somebody is going to pinch my ass. somebody =p

glad

2008-03-09T14:27:00.002+08:00

it has been a few months since i cared about friendster or facebook. well, i didn't exactly have the time to maintain and keep up because of my lil prince charming. but today, i logged in to both for a while and i was glad. glad to see my friends displaying pictures of them with their gf/bf. they all seemed pretty sweet together and loving.

i felt happy for them.

pardon me, my dear friends, if i didn't reply your messages or take part in the quiz or write u a sticky note or just mingle around and play. pretty sorry ya.

oh. i nearly forgot.. my main aim to come online today is to check when is the start of my HOLIDAYS!

away for xx minutes.

alrighty. i checked that the exam period is from: 23 April to 12 May (tentative) hopefully it can be confirmed soon as auntie Elaine is making some plans.. hees.

shalala.

oh ya. there has been this one thing that i wanted to blog about. don't date girls out with this following message (at least not me):

Hey still remember me? haha how's life. btw can i date you out this sat?

-total turned off. what's with the haha how's life? -___-"
okay, just this matter.

ciaos.

the leap year entry

2008-02-29T20:40:00.033+08:00

some people seemed to have it all.
some seemed happy.
some seemed sad.
some behaved proudly.
some have fallen.

for now, i belong to the: have-it-all category.

the smile he gave me is - everything.

his priceless smile =)

since his birth, his every lil changes are surprises to me.
he just turned 3 months on the 26th.

*

i havent blog for a long while... ya, pretty long i know.

first stop. the belateds-

happy belated 21st to: LiJie.
happy belated 21st to: ShiHui.
happy belated 21st to: Ericia.
happy belated 21st to: HJM, Jessie.

as well as.. Happy New Year. Happy Chinese New Year. Happy V.day.

*

to my dear Qing Ai De-bestfriend: i truly want you to be happy.

to xuan mei: 12/03/08! =)

to yan, han rong, jin ho and zhen cong(especially) : 20/03/08!!! hees.

*

erm.. i dont know what else to blog. so let's see some of my lil prince charming's pictures ya?

Day 1.

Day 2.

Day 3.

Day 4 -----------------Day 8

Day 16.

Day 20----------------Day 21----------------Day 23

Christmas Day!

First month.

second month.

third month.

followed by some randoms...

sleepy.

first day of cny.

pj given by xuan.

sexyback.

looking at flashcards.

first mouthful of his fist.

having a "feast-of-his-fist".

smiling.

showing off his double eyelids.

*

he's a lil big bully. but yet i love every bits of him =)

a long post

2007-10-17T20:01:00.001+08:00

oh well. so many things happen, as usual. many stuff to update.

one night, i saw cecilia on 75. chatted with her.
another time hanif msg me saying he saw me and told me i looked pretty. oh. thanx. i actually was very very not on-form..

i kinda missed the secondary school days. let's just hope my friends will always talk and call out to me.. it's nice. somehow.

okay. there was more baby shopping.. and i have many many photos but i only upload portions cos i really dont have the time to upload ALL. it's ALOT, you know? hees.

anyway, my first paper is next week. wish me best of luck for all papers. thanx to those who console me. (i failed my marketing test) ohh.

been thinking abt some issues. like why many ang mohs can just let go of things and get/move on. must be the culture and believes and influences and all those-shits. awww.

changes.changes.changes. hate them but they keep coming back for more/me.

to yan, hr, z.c.m, wei li and jin ho: JIA YOU AND STUDY! GOODIES LUCK to US!

-

november the 26th is going to be a good day. a very good day =)

let it all go. wild.

*

on 15/10/07, i went sentosa-ing with 3 "lao das" fierce eh?

imitating jay chou.

erm. it's funny, you know?

dont ask me about this one.

randoms.

utterly irritating/disgusting guy in red. arghs!

.

yummy mango sago with pomelo at...

Dong Hai!

.

this is to show angel that i found the lowest rate mani and pedi...

.

my friends at SIM.

.

more baby stuff!

.

brother chang~e. hees.

***

05.10.07
some friday cool hanging out...

my bros.

On Sunday 07/10, i cried like i forgot who i am. i stumbled upon : "A Walk To Remember", and that's it. i died-ed with it. i was so into the show. i let the tears flow. i didn't bother about anything. - anything at all. letting it out, crying my lungs out feels kinda good.

i want a landon cartier to be called mine. i want him so damn badly. bloody badly.

Monday 08/10. marco class is changed to tomorrow 09/10 so it's a perfect day for project. suppose to meet at 11am. i could make it but i didn't. i didn't overslept. i didn't forget. not the traffic jams. no.

i kinda felt it. i had it coming.

sometimes i wished that i can have the whole house to myself but at times, i really wished that by chance, someone was at home for me. i hate it when it hit me. i am scared that. really one day, one of these days- a permanent black out and that's goodbye dear qing..

i want to act/be strong when i am with people. i try my best to concentrate but after i used up my energy, i know i need a rest. a good one.

i have been lucky. i had been very sick. sick. then things took a turn - for the better. i was glad. still breathing but with crashed dreams.

to smokers : thank you for NOT smoking.

i don't like smokers but yet avoiding them seemed impossible. i don't smoke and never will. it will a over-my-dead-body kind of thing. because my late grandfather who has left me since i was 7, was a heavy smoker. if i know that smoking is harmful when i was young, i would throw away every single cigarettes that he had.

i would tell him this- "gong gong, bu yao chou yan, wo ai ni gong gong."

well, i can never ever get to say that.

the pain of losing him is still felt today. it was a torture and i kinda hate myself for it. when i see people who i call friends and they are smoking, i will try to ask them not to. not because i really care so much but because i know how it all come and go..

all these years, i cant let him go. he was my dearest, dearest grandfather. and everytime i think hard about him, my vision will blurred. i hold him still very very close to my heart...

some mid-autumn fun 25/09/07

sweet eh>

wees! winks! muacksy!

2007-09-25T19:14:00.001+08:00

i lazy to upload pics as it take a super long time but well. one for LuLU is a must! that day saturday celebrated her 21st! but today is the official one. it's my mum's birthday today too!

Happy 21st My dear LuLU!

*

to my dates for that night...
see. army made army boys cannot take steady pictures!
i am not talking about you xiao chang. hiaks!

*

to my dear best friend. mbtf.qad.

-always sidebyside.

i just wish and hope that you will be happy and contented.
i love ya =)
smile. with me

*

on the same day. the morning...

who says that organic dishes are so not nice?
i TOTALLY DISAGREE!!!
YUMS.YUMS.YUMS> dig it.

i was at BollyWood by Posion Ivy. hiaks.
i became a farmer? hees. great great outing.
shall post more pics abt it. later~

*

oh baby baby baby. i love you!

this picture is a must to post. hees. these are mittens and booties for my lil baby!
cute eh?
baby mickey and twinkle twinkle lil stars!

and the toot toots!!
oh. i wanna suck on them too! hees.

*

to my dearest mummy: you might not see this. but i love you. i love you very much. i dote on you alot. and i want you to be happy. i love you! happy birthday! you will always look pretty to me. very pretty. finish up the bird's nest i bought!!! *muacks =)

so many things to say. but...

2007-09-18T22:36:00.001+08:00

Happiness.

super classic. ask yong jia why.

*

pure shiokness

*

partying at party world.

*

we really got study..
he can sleep. cos he's zhen cong ming ok.

*

my lil baby stuff

i got like A LOT of things to say and update but i am plain lazy to come online. save electricity bill i claim. alright i am lazy. i had fun. had stress. had madness. but i had been missing. missing my afmm. missing my xuan mei. missing my kaka. missing my 1W04. my bros. how are you guys doing man? i miss ya all.. changes.changes. hate it sometimes. well. it happens most of the time though. exams are coming. mates, let's study? hee. no more KBox and Party world while studying ok? hees.

Britain's Got Talent-Connie Talbot Conny

2007-09-09T22:52:00.001+08:00

this is the video that Fruitty wants to share with me. this is real touching and sweet.

楊宗緯--雨天

2007-08-30T22:35:00.001+08:00

i cried too.

i am a lazy girl

2007-08-30T21:20:00.000+08:00

from: the Daily Scoop @ Sunset Way...

my new fav. ice cream- lychee martini and cookies monster! yummylicious!

*

new kbox kakis!

zhen cong,ming & Yan Ling & Jin Ho!

i reckon i have been a rather lazy/busy girl. nice way to put it is say i "busy". hees. so lack of updates that my QingAiDe is asking me when am i getting married. haa. oh my.

been suffering from a sickness. "super low self-esteeming." i like want to do so many things to my body. to change myself. to psycho myself. to hypnotize myself. to numb myself. to push myself. to make myself smile from the heart. i need a break from everyone, everything. time to let myself breathe alone. i want my imperfections to be perfect.

but slowly. i try to console myself. i talked myself out of the depressed mode which i dont show to anyone. there are people out there more miserable and in a more devastating state. what am i compared to them? it's nothing. really nothing.

the pain felt from skin is nothing (superficial).
the pain felt emotionally and mentally is a real torture.

wees!

2007-08-10T12:16:00.000+08:00

me.Utt

finally i got this picture from catherine. hees. thanx qian jin =)

thankies =)

2007-08-02T18:25:00.000+08:00

Big thank YOUs to those who love me and care for me.

it was really nice of:

My Angeline
Xuan Mei
LuLu
Yong Jia DiDi
Kok Ping Bro
Xiao Chang Bro
Vincent Bro

to sharing for my 20th present. i bought my first ever Levi's Jeans. hees. i love it! MUACKS MUACKS and BIG HUGGIES! =)

extra thankies to my Qing Ai De for giving me those "Cinnamonona" stuff to me! so cuties! hees. thanx a lot dear. hearts you.

thankies to:

MSS
Xuan Mei
Liz Jie
Yong Jia Di DI
My Angeline
Jessie HJM
Elaine
LuLu
Vincent
Kai Jie
Melissa
Auntie Susan
Alvin mei mei
Yvonne
Hanif
Ivan Ykk
Kok Ping Bro
Lee Hwee
Roy
Mummy&Daddy&PoPo&NaiNai

for wishing me and being with me and have the thought of me! well. am no longer teen-ager and all. wails! but. i am going to be a hardworking girl =p

*

4th day of schooling in SIM. things are so different. when i say different. i seriously mean it.. wish me lots of luck.

*

take care all. hugs

me and my randomness

2007-07-09T13:17:00.000+08:00

sorrysorrysorry to JJ-Jun Jie (my classmate) for not being able to attend his 21st celebration yesterday.. i really cant make it. sorry again. even though i know you might not see this. but i am still sorry. best wishes. may you be happy and cheerful always. take care in army! when it's your birthday. i will msg you!

first up. the nice nice beancurd which mss had brought me to eat before. it's at the short street one. well. chang asked if we want to go eat ma. so we go lor. it was my first time there at night. many many people!

before the beancurd break...

.
.

full & happy us.

2 happy best friends.

2 botaks

and

1 botak wannabe.

our table was full! hees. yums.

angel and bro chang.

me and bro chang - normal state.

me and act cute bro chang - abnormal state.

bro chang and his cute "lover"

best friends. best friends, best friends!

my 07/07/07 was well spent. kumon from morning till afternoon. and dinner with them. happiness. take care har yong jia didi and ah pok pok. good luck har chang! hope bro chang like the birthday present.. hees.

well. presents are almost bought:

bro chang (8 July)

bro kp (13 July)

Liz (23 July)

Raymond (28 July)

except for:

bro vincent (27 July)

this month is my broke/happy month.

A Big "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" TO ALL JULY BABIES!

Christine.Anthony.Xiao Chang.Kok Ping.Kai Li.Jun Jie. Liz.Raymond.Vincent. Wesley.

AND

yours sincerely - me!!!

july is a great month.

congrats to Jessie HJM's sister for getting engaged on 07/07/07.

swatch-ing

me and Liz. i heart her.

random kicks in.

whose hand? whose watch?

lovely purple roses. for my angel =)

i love my tecra. i will miss u.

cafe del mar's female/nu you private beach party.

to catherine: where is my only pic with UTT???

I don't wanna be...A murderer

first present.

2007-07-01T21:04:00.000+08:00

i got my first present from the peeps at swatch. sweet. its a pink levi's spgh top. lovely. thank yous. i appreciate it alot. it's really nice. i mean. i have been only working for a while. its just that we 3 happen to have the same horoscope and near dates of birthdays. how coincidental =)

*

say "i love you" to me, in my face.
say "i miss you" to me, in my face.
say it near to me. very near. please.

*

counting down minutes which are like hours.

counting down days which are like months.

counting down for me to be happy. once again.

happiness. best friends.

2007-06-25T22:05:00.001+08:00

graduated.

always supporting and encouraging each other.

lucky girl..

yummy cakes!

i hope my bestest friend is happy 6 days ago =)

i was the official photographer ok?

oh.

the next month's today - hees.

oh well. shall i have a "wish-list"?

tsk tsk.

me

2007-06-24T22:47:00.000+08:00

i feel cold everyday.
i feel tired everyday.
i feel lonely everyday.
i feel like i have no strength.

i am not strong as i always claim.

i know i am getting weaker.
i need a powerful source which i can feel from within...

everyday i am sad.

i cant forgive -myself.

i hate myself for torturing me.

breathe,

karma

2007-06-06T23:25:00.000+08:00

Ladies and Gentlemen.

Please believe in Karma.

those who enjoyed putting people down can continue to prove that you are a great - sucker. go on. enjoy. and in the end. sucked yourself dry. you will perish soon enough. before you know it.

give people their right to breathe.

because.
you ain't god.
you ain't buddha.

you cannot make people life miserable.

fuck off. seriously. get your own life. before you lose it.

SICK!

2007-06-01T12:30:00.000+08:00

i have been sick since last fri/sat. that was what's so ever happening in my life. thanx to my private doctor. and dear kindy nurse-xuan. i am getting so much better now. and today. i can curse and swear. i am back to my normal =)

rantings for: SIM & MAYBANK> i will be nice.

"^$^%#@%@*&^$TA MA DE%^&^&%$$$ TA MA DE%^%&*#&*+^*"

see. i am nice. compared to past vulgar entries to scream at people. the people at these 2 places are driving me up the wall and driving me NUTSy. argh. i so want to use the "F" word. my fav word.

anyway. forget abt those. i can deal with them. yes i can.

i bought a laptop. An Asus. F9 series.
Tell me it's nice & good. shut the rest.

*

i tore up my pri. 6 journal. i nv burn like how i would burn old things. i merely tore and threw them away. i kept an entry from my teacher.

trying to search for it..

i am ANGRY now. i fuckin lost it. i put it near my laptop here. now where in the fuckin world is it now? fuck man. argh. no idea how angry i am when i keep losing things. now i am going to lose myself. i treasure that piece of paper !! fuck la. dont let me find out who threw it. i kept it especially because i want to keep it. i want to type on blog one. kaos. i hate this feeling. it should be here but it isn't. i feel so helpless. i hate this kind of feeling. it's mine and i know where is it. dont tell me it can fuckin grow legs and run away.

*

feeling sick to my ass.

huang bi ren is cool!

2007-05-23T22:08:00.000+08:00

today. go out in my fav black heels with a sickly xuan. oh my heart pains to see her sick. sista, PLEASE get well soon. get lotsa rest yahs? loves.

had crystal jade with xuan at Taka. oh boy. the duck+chicken congee is YUMMYLICIOUS! and nope. i think i never had orange color honeydew before. xuan. buy me one! hees. i love being with xuan. just being in my relaxed mode and mood. she's just lovely and fun to be with.

went fcuk. spent some time helping evonne jiejie. she's a real cutie. wanna squeeze her cheeks! she's a wonder mummy. i bow to her. i do. thot of going back to work for June/July period before sch starts.. but when we got on bus home.. Swatch called and gave me the dates in June to work. i agreed to them le. then as xuan got down the bus. Evonne jiejie called to ask if i can work at fcuk. ah. shit. you see. taxi theory is so right-on-spot.

a yes is a yes.
promise means promise.

anyway things are all so different at FC now, yah?
people.things.people.

right. so i will be working at Jurong Point's Swatch in June for 12 days between 4th and 30th. drop by in the afternoon and you might just see me there - stoning. hees.

well. no pain no gain.
no work no money.
jia you run qing!
save save save!!!
i really gotta save!
i hate GSS. argh.

*

just watched the 9pm show on Ch8 - Mars Vs Venus. I adore Huang Bi Ren. she's the BEST leading actress for me. she cries. i cries. that's how good she is. real. into the character and close to heart. she's amazing and charming. loves loves!

*

introducing my "OK-LAH" PoPO.
i was maid for her dinner tonight. i felt it.
she bought me dinner. fed me well.
then made me maid.

conversations are purely in Hokkein.
and my PoPO was real busy i tell you.
she was watching her "must watch" - San Shun.

QinG*: PO! How you want your ginger to be?
PoPO: OK LAH OK. i watching SAN SHUN!
QinG*: PO! How you want your pork to be?
PoPO: OK LAH.
QinG*: PO! How you want your noodles to be?
PoPO: OK LAH.
QinG*: PO! Noodles i dont put too much MSG. salty also. no good.
PoPO: OK LAH.
QinG*: PO! Now i cook your herbal tea for you hor?
PoPO: OK LAH.

i brought all her food stuff to her in the living room. right in front of her. serving to her. this time. she said something different.

PoPO: Paiseh hor, i no time to CHAP you.
QinG*: it's ok Po. slowly eat har. (went back to kitchen do washing.)

*

she is my grandma. i love her. but she does gets on the last nerve i have left sometimes. nevertheless. i love my grandma dearly. good health grandma. BIG HUGS. i love you.

lazy girl - me

2007-05-21T21:15:00.000+08:00

have been lying in bed for Sat & Sun. i was unwell. xuan have fever. i hope she will be fine soon. i love my dear sista. i know she is strong, like me. we the bamboo sistas okay?

i cutted my hair. from nearly at waist level to now - a bit longer than shoulder length. long since i bear to cut so much. i always ask the hairdresser to try to maintain my length. but this time. hack la. cut la cut la. cut away those unwanted. cut away those unhappiness. cut away. just cut.

now i can countdown from 65 days. wees!

i like FINALLY got the SIM package! school is starting for me on 30th of July. 5 days after my 20th. hees. good timing har. good.

graduation ceremony is coming soon. June 13. why must be so early? damn.

well. i think i got a lot of things to update. but. i am still lazy.

summary: i enjoyed myself very much on AFMM's chalet.
we are the 4 crazy girls. then. now. always.
next har. mich ah ma shall plan for an oversea trip.
not Sentosa anymore. not counted.
Sentosa one is Angel + Fulin plan one.
next one shall be Mel + Mich plan de.. hees.

wo ai ni men =)

*

hm. wat's next? oh. ya. no more One Big Li for me =(

*

to my dear angel: i today got some inspiration for your present... hees. tmr you going H.K. please be safe&sound. careful, alert, cautious and guai guai okays? gonna miss you my dear bestest friend. *hugs =)

*

ok now. pictures and all.
first up is the BORING Genting trip...

entertaining you is me!

Just For Laughs

check out my toes! haa.

i wanna play this. hees.

cutie baby with BIG eyes.

my creation- blueberry cheesecake

scenery.

my mummy =)

mary go round & round...

my parents.

reindeer ride. cool ok?

see i so happy. but.

*

work+work+work stuff

*

AFMM's Chalet. i waited so damn long!!!

thankies: amm - for making yourselves available and spending time together. i love you girls.

*

thankies: to xuan - for sending me 2 nice and meaningful song. thanx for kboxing with me! get well soon sista. i wanna see you well too! muacks! =)

*

this is super/duper random i know but something i want to say.

the man who wants to marry me must propose with 4 songs

song1 : Alex Toh's Jia Gei Wo.
Must have: go-off go-off voice version.

song2 : Tank's Zhuan Shu Tian Shi
Must have: actions + patterns + laughing effects

song3 : Tank's Fei Ni Mo Shu
Must have: eh. i haven think of it yet.

song4 : Enrique Iglesias' Hero
Must have: the right "feelings" + very manly voice + actions

wo yi ding hui jia gei ni de =)

ok. i know i am really crazy but ...

17/05/07 12:15AM

so lazy!

2007-04-29T19:54:00.000+08:00

i am so lazy. i seriously cant change the font on my blog? oh man. i delete the light green background. and "expanded" my blog space for pictures. but now. i am so lazy to blog because i am in a FOUL mood. cos i got sore throat and my voice is GONE. argh. where's my doctor? hate it when i cant talk well. lazy to update on my life and lazy to edit the pictures and just really lazy la!. how can i work on Labour Day when i have no voice? hack.

AFMM's chalet on 7,8&9. it's coming.

ikea.sentosa. wees.

2007-04-20T23:01:00.000+08:00

18/04/07

Ikea Day. Period Day.

20.04.07. Sentosa Day. with Kp bro and my mummy! cute combination i know. hees. guess who i saw on bus 963 on the way to harbour front?

my pretty & cute XUAN mei mei!!!! how qiao!
hees. muacks*

sentosa.sentosa.sentosa. needed some of that. sleeping on the beach is nice la. blew some wind. kicked some sand. soaked some water. made my islander card! got some seashells. adding to my tiny collection.. wees. i hope my mummy wasn't bored. hees. i love you mummy!
thanx kp bro for the double choc ice-cream. the D24 sure is D24.. wa piang wei.

it's nice.

*

dixie chicks - not ready to make nice.

sometimes. when you feel something, say it. just say it. or else you might not have the chance... and because the only constant is = change.

nong nong update. lots of pics.

2007-04-20T00:16:00.000+08:00

First up! BINTAN!

my mummy's really tired.

cutie aunt susan and MBF!

my happy mummy!

her happy daughter. siao ah qing.

that hut is the sun/moon restaurant

our private beach!

best friends! fighting?

i love my mummy very much.
i am really her daughter despite the color diff.

my happy best friend.

happy aunt susan.

never seen angel take picture so happy.
WE ARE BEST FRIENDS!!!

angel packing...

3 silly women on the b-a-n-a-n-a boat.

low tide. balcony's view.

2 happy daughters and 2 tired mummies =p

i love the bintan trip even though it's only 2 days/1 night. even though i got rashes before i reach there and got bad stomachache when i came back to singapore.. it's all fun. all the massage/spa/scrub is SHIOK! you heard me. it's shiok.
well, anyway. we were like princesses/queens there. it is a new resort. less than 10 tourists there. so u see. we are super happy there la! wee wee wees!

? so many things to update. this might take a while.. jessie called on 11/4, saying that there will be a big gathering dinner on 12/4... then, elaine msged me to confirm about 12/4 kumon which starts at 3pm. haa. so qiao one can? cant make it. paiseh. hees.

23 of march. 4e2 class gathering?

got one day.. 28 of march. the best friends go for free oxygen cocktail and treatment. and they got a discovery! hees.

09/04/07 - fcuk bitches. i mean the beautifullest. hees.

13/04/07
happy friday the 13th!

14/04/07
i rested on my mummy's backside as she lie sideway watching jacky wu's show.
once again. i held my tears.

15/04/07
swim swim with my xuan-

waited at the park for xuan. my heart went all calm when some leaves fell from the trees. for the 3 seconds. my heart was calm...

after swimming/jacuzzi. we are like hungry rabbits! haha.

love you sister. please always take care. faster pass your attachment!! *muacks!

16/04/07 - best friends are forever.

met with angel at 1pm for our dosage of kkm. yums. burp*
then went town in the fast & furious 700.
started our mission from wisma and all the way to plaza sing.

bought
$2 pen for donation.
a top from future state.
a dress from forever 21.
a pair of rings from forever 21.

ate
tori Q
thai express (with yong jia didi)
bakerzin cutie lil soft biscuits.

cutie bakerzin soft biscuits =)

actually...
this sat/sun i might be helping at msu helping the ladies get dressed. but too bad, i am heading to genting.can work with kaka but haiya. too bad la.

22/4-24/4 : floating at Genting.

and oh!

i got my money back from junior. thankies junior. now, it's angel's turn. hees. Junior, pay back angel okays?

t.t

2007-04-19T22:54:00.000+08:00

i love trista and trevin =)

argh!

2007-04-15T22:25:00.000+08:00

i have a nong nong post which i kept in draft. later then finish and upload. later!

today i went swimming with xuan at her cousin's condo. her cousin's lovely. artistic and clever. in her name, we swam. i merely practised my kicking with a board. it's fun i reckon. i am 9 years old okay? hees. times like this with xuan - at the jacuzzi. is so relaxing. dont have to talk or mention much. just the company/updates/chit-chats/laughs/smiles is what made me real happy we are "sisters". love her lots! let's keep our sisterhood for a life time!

* some rantings i had been keeping.

i msged Junior this: Ni dao di yao bu yao huan qian? between us, there was friendship and trust. you are a nice chap i know. but now, it seems to me u are misusing friends..

it kinda hurt me to have msged him this kind of msg. i say he is a nice chap cos i am not an ungrateful person. i remembered during 3do when we are Lingo's group GL, he was nice and took care of me when my period came and it was really painful. i lent him the money to buy the things he want and i trust that he return me the money as it's rightfully mine! hey, it's $75 bucks not $7.50. having lent such amount, i REGRET. since like October last year, he owed until this year. when i had no choice and had to borrow money from people, i will RETURN. it's responsibility and the kind of favour you have to return as the person trust you. i hate it when i have to chase for money when it's rightfully mine. i want to let it rest and treat it like charity but i cant stand it when he lied times and times again. tell me the truth. we can work out something. dont lie to me. those money i lent, i worked for it so it isn't fair to me if you dont return. you get it? i had the trust in you to return. i took you as a friend. i did.

now, i might turn nasty. argh. why do things have to be like this?
it's a simple equation. i lent you money = you return me back.

*

to Love: reveal your true self to me.

to pin: hey my bro. please take care yahs =)

*

what goes around, comes all the way back around.

Bintan.bintan.bintan.bintan.bintan.

2007-04-02T22:57:00.000+08:00

shalala. i am off to Bintan tmr! TaTa. take care all. hugs.

ciaoz~

prom update

2007-03-27T22:49:00.000+08:00

seems like i am forever not touching on the editing of prom night pictures.. haa. got la. here's some. and eh. i applied for SIM yesterday. gotta wait one month for their reply for admission. wish me lots of luck!

before you see any pictures of that night... i would like to thank this cute lady below for helping me and angel doll up. and of course we paid her la. if you think she's good and you need an experienced make-up artist, feel free to ask me for her contact!

i must snap more now.. snap snap.

me.me.me

best friends.

my lulu. ain't my dress supposed to be black?

HJMs. sexy her.

cute.pretty.blur DA JIE =)

bro.chang chang!

funny.lame.pig. bro. kp.

eric uncle. nope, u cannot see me.

now you can see me. with jy.

DON'T ask me abt this...

* kumon.
oh. my cute lil Jia Sheng like have grown up. he now is a cute lil handsome/clever chap! *muacks the one in green behind him is angel! hees.

and introducing the very FAMOUS Xiao Qiang which caused me some disturbance. and i only managed to sleep only at like 5.30am. thanx har. when i saw him like stuck in my air-con then can i like rest... zzz...

up till today since Sunday, i had no idea where he/she is. It can FLY! argh! go home xiao qiang. go home!

and just the other day. some guy claimed to be this guy (above). haa. dont know WHO sia. haa.

class gathering?

2007-03-24T23:11:00.000+08:00

went for 4e2's class gathering last night at The Labyrinth by Pool Junction. erm. it was a class gathering ya? hm. alrights. no comments. but one particular call got me all "high". hees. no, i didn't get drunk by the vodka. nope. i was 'highed' by the call can. hees. left after Tank's Zhuan Shu Tian Shi... shared cab back with xuan & angel. xuan left her lil cute green clip on the cab. hees. and i left my wallet with angel. how blur can we get? hees.
conclusion for the class gathering: unfeeling and smelly ah! chokes.

and erm, lucky for me, this time, no one locked the doors. i reached home at 2am. pretty early huh. of course. i can still on my laptop and . e . . . . . i . . m . . . . . . . . . despite having kumon at 9am. i am power! (for the first time) was yawning at the lil kids =p

after kumon collect my wallet from angel and collected my u.g.l.y passport photos and went home. wanted to cook noodles becos i am seriously BROKE! i hope junior sees this. but i didnt. i was pretty tired and went to zzz for a while. then, it was time to meet angel at interchange to go Suntec's NATAS fair. yipees aiOH! we booked the 2 days 1 night trip. sorry to angel and aunt susan that it's pretty short. my mum really cant get away for long... i hope it will be SUPERLY FUN!!! it's 2 daughters and 2 pretty ma mas. it will be "bring you 2 lil girls out very MA FAN AH!" hees. who are the 2 lil girls? let's see...

saw mich ah ma and mel at the fair. they were working there. jia you jia you jia you oh! remember to transfer money for me ya. for our lil May's vacation at the cute island - Sentosa. hees. yups, Sentosa la! cool man the place. dont look down on it or see small it har. we will turn it over and have crazy loads of uncontrollable FUN & MADNESS. love you gorgeous! =)

25 is nearing in like half an hour' time?

wawaweewa~ very nice. i like =)

so many things!

2007-03-20T01:38:00.000+08:00

there are like freaking alot of things to be updated here. but i cant because the infamous "3" virus is hitting on me, like AGAIN! but lucky me. tonight. it's resting so i better update while i can. hees. had blue screens twice like last last last night. freaking me out man!

introducing Fuji FinePix A610 - my new lovely lil thing.

snap snap snapping!

mmfa.afmm

let's always walk together girls. yes we shall.

okays, it's the super long awaited afmm dinner on 12 of march. like we meet up once a year or something. haa. i seriously, LOVE THEM LOVE THEM LOVE THEM. you awesome pretty ladies. *MUACKS. come on, let's just make ourselves free on May 8,9 & 10? hees.

pretty dolphin/seal bracelet mel gave me

and oh yes, i just cut hair. after so long. i was growing for prom night you see. hees. now i am ah toot qing yet again.

on 17, i went xuan's for some catch up and bbq with her family and her sisters' classmates.

lovely necklace xuan gave me.

blurry us. the black+white sistas.

i am like laughing my ass off? hees.
hanging out with the fifteens.
make me look like one right?
right? right? right?

showing off for now...

yipoh's cute lil grandson.

19/march - after enquiring about some courses in SIM, we head to plaza's cafe cartel...

my "oh-i-feel-so-liang" best friend after her haircut.

FOC bread.

aeh. let me think.. is this butter?

yummy bacon and ham sandwiches!

sinful chocolate brownie which made me sleepy. very sleepy.

~*TODAY"S - 21/march/07*~

had kkm with angel and her bro at 16three. sounds cool hor? actually is just some noodles food at downstairs kopitiam. hehs. wanted to check out the Bintan's trip at WTS but i think they bloody busy can. argh. anyway, chatted a lil with kp bro. he seems busy and upset. bro, jia you ba. who ask u huh dont study and work hard when we told you to! anyway, take good care ok. future is in your hands. meet up and go out!!

me & qian jin - kbox

forever entertaining ivan (my ykk) & xiong

we sang from 2 plus to 7pm. no more fyp stress this time. i nearly believed ivan when he say he has to go back school and do project after kbox. how dumb can i get??? fun and enjoyable as usual. let our hair down and crazy selves surfaced. hees. ok. and then i went railway mall to have dinner with xuan! hees. such a well planned day. yipees. saw a really really really adorable baby girl. oh my, i cant control my emotions that the ah ma knows and she proudly parade her grand daughter to me and xuan!

super ubger cutie baby girl!!!

ramen ramen with sista xuan.

always ya jie.

*muacks =)

reply...

to Love: thanx for sharing the video.

to Jessie: i nv mia. here's the update!

well, shalala. always be happy =)

i love Tank's Zhuan Shu Tian Shi.

i am a lil happier Day by Day. because...

marching into march

2007-03-06T22:25:00.000+08:00

began march with last min's prom shopping with angel and her bro (wesley). bought an eye-on very long pair of tie-tie heeeeels! MY FAV. of course, on the top of my list is my pazzion's =)

then it was friday/prom night/hectic/crazy/glam/throw face/enjoyed/let bygones be bygones night. wee! went Alan's lounge at M.Sultan. fun time. played Zoo and 007. heh. i was like a lil goong, thanx to kp bro who helped me to drink. shalala~ and ya, 1W04 shall always be in my heart.

saturday i woke up 3.30pm! oh my. so "early". went town alone to meet up with a seller. i bought kapO blue! hees. bf/companion for my kapo pink.

sunday - SIA interview 3. sadly, i have skin problem on my back. yups, well. truth. good luck to amanda and marie! they have the air stewardess look! i so adore them! had subway with them at Far East, then head home, met up with bro chang to eat duck noodles and talk talk then walked to BPP to have ice cream at Swensen and just listened to the "uncle" talk about life and consoling me. thanx a lot bro. it would be great to have you as my real big brother if i can choose. i always wanted elder brothers who can protect me and support me and to catch me when i fall and find me when i got lost and for me to chop like a "vegetable head" hees. joking, you my bro =)

amanda and marie! i adore them *amanda looks a lil like Ericia ya? marie looks better in real life. both are pretty kind hearted and lovely babes!

monday- watched "Protege" with angel, wesley and chang. Pro-ter-she . that's how you pronounce the movie name. it's like a scary show to me. at some points, i thought is the "zhen zi" show. haa. but it has got its meaning. cool show. good performance. damn real and hello Gu Tian Tian!!! hees.

tue. ate kkm with angel and her bro. yums yums. went Kumon at 3pm and ended work at 9.30pm. so hiong! i must be getting on. hees.

wed. ate nutella with bread for breakfast. been a while since i had breakfast. had yummy creamy pasta at angel's. yums. then go kumon do admin work. then dinner is back at angel's. it was STEAMBOAT! boy, i love steamboat. hees. one suay thing happened today. my slipper died-ed on me on the way to kumon. had to borrow 10 dollars from elaine upon reaching to buy a cheap cheap 9.90 sandals. hees. how funny.

today- wash some bags as they collecting dusts/fleas/dirts/blah. went kumon at 3pm and worked til 9.15pm. got pay for the month of feb. gonna spend it on a digital camera! wees. this saturday i hope i am getting it. it's reasonably priced and with basically idiot proof features. just right for me =)

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FOC - Anna Sui's foundation and Gucci Envy Me 2 (limited edition) thanx to your good luck mummy! love ya! *muacks

P.S: prom pictures shall be uploaded soon! and er. i think i have to get my keyboard from jessie pretty soon. i guess my "3" is acting up yet again. argh!

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cant seem to reply on tagboard. so, here are the replies!

to mss.hlm: thanx dear. i love you. please take care alrights =) i want to be your angel, not angle can? hees

to Love: i seriously hope one day i can know who you are =) thanx a lot.

to rui: hey! rare guests! sweetie, you take care too! you smile on always ya =)

to jessie: HUGS HUGS. misssssss you too! =)

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take care all. big hugs. those working at IT fair, xin ku le!

may time pass FASTER! wees!

everyday is a blessing =)

phew!

2007-02-28T22:26:00.000+08:00

lucky me! things are fine. phew! hees. i am happy. all thanx to love.

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french manicure session is so damn not successful today! argh! "^%#%@#^$^" so sorry dear... i need more practices! haa. i just love doing things for my best friend. i want her to look pretty pretty! hees. hugs mbtf.QAD =)

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prom's on fri. the day after tomorrow. so fast !! i wanna hide away and be "un-noticable". hees.

amazing

2007-02-27T18:32:00.000+08:00

it's amazing how things can change. changes are constant. nothing is forever. the thought of wanting to stay with my dream is tough. despite difficulties and barriers, going through and wanting to stay strong and determined is not an easy task. to be able to be firm and gain support is something hard to obtain. having to move forward and think of what's best for oneself is really a challenge. how can you be sure that your one decision would not affect the rest of your life? there is no definite answer. being myself and believing myself is one thing i am proud of. doing what others want me to do rather than do the things i want had been repeated many time throughout my life. though i am not very old, but i had gain my experiences in different aspects. this is serious. not random. this is what i had to think clearly and be on my own to achieve. what i want and what i need are the 2 most major questions running through my lil brain now. to overcome? to let go? to make a decision which i will stick by with no regrets. no regrets at all. is that possible? i always claim i am strong. i always claim i will be alright. but is this the case? am i really that strong and alright? no.

dreams...

sometimes in dreams, you have more dreams.
sometimes in life, you have more than one dream.
sometimes getting near your dream, you are happy.
sometimes getting your dream, you need to sacrifice.
sometimes the dream you want might not be just quite it.

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thank you but thank you, not.